Thursday, July 16, 2009
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Butterfly on God's Shoulder

It is said that if God had a sister it would be Malettor Cross... My mother went to be with the Lord on July 4th...God granted her own independence from this world. She was truly a woman of God. Her favorite verse that motivated her into ministry was "The fruit of the righteous is a tree of Life and he that winneth souls is wise..Prov. 11:30" In addition to raising 11 children and being the wife of a Pastor she spent the majority of her life ministering to children through children's Bible clubs in the public schools in Detroit. She was also a very popular speaker at conference's across the country. along with my Dad~Pastor Haman Cross Sr. they founded Detroit's Afro-American Mission in the late 60's pionenering inner-city work among Detroit's homeless and destitute. Bringing a message of God's love.mercy and grace through clothing give-aways, food pantry bible studies and numerous youth programs at a time when this type of work was unprecedented.
My mother meant more than I can ever write about in every area of my life but espy in the last 15 years in my recovery and all the struggles that came in between. she absolutly never gave up on me...and as the song says by Marvin Sapp..I truly never would have it..without her. A mother's love is truly next to God's love.
I miss you Mama..more than anything...fly away Butterfly and rest on God's shoulder...
Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Iron Sharpens Iron
I am so excited to not only get back to blogging...but tell you about our new men's support group that meets every Monday Morning- from 10- 12 (although we go longer than that!) We are simply men (women's group to form later)that meet to hold each other accountable, encourage each other and to get into God's word. Many of us are in recovery others are just seeking direction and support from other brothers in the body. We are Pastors, laborers, professionals, teachers, -from all aspects of life. Pray for us as we seek God's direction for where he wants to take us.
We will be hosting our first -one day confernce in October....our theme will be "Who dropped You"..from 2 sam 2:4....look for details soon. But before that happens -Ananepho Ministries is extremly excited about our third recovery retreat this year. We will be at Circly y Bible Camp...I will have a separate post on that later.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Consecration- Worship
This is my first day of consecration during these 40 days. Thanks for reading and looking in. Why consecration? Why 40 days? I’ll get into more details about that later but I wanted to look at what is consecration? There are several Greek and Hebrew words that render consecration. They all point to the same thing: setting apart a person or thing for worship to the Lord. God has been dealing with me for the past month on worship. My real worship has been sporadic at best. My good friend and Pastor Dwight Knight was recently at my church and stated this in his sermon- “anybody can praise him but you need to be qualified to worship him” Wow!-Powerful and true statement. Worship requires a clean heart and hands. I’ll have more to say on that later.
This has been a very difficult season in all areas of my life. I have tendency to not be transparent when I really need to be. Struggle with trying to keep up an image of what I think I should be and how that should look to other people. My barometer of measurement seems to always be measured by the wrong thing. As my Pastor says…”when you judge yourselves by the wrong standard...you will always come up with the wrong measurement” As I face life issues on life’s terms…God is convicting me that my worship is not what it should be. Worship should not be an event but at experience. Adam and Eve experienced worship and relationship with God...Continuously until that was interrupted by sin…then worship began to be an event. I desire to stay in his presence and experience him like never before…despite of what is happening around me and what the circumstances seem to be.
Ps 63:3- Because your love is better than life...my lips will glorify you…
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Oprah and Purpose Driven Life
Here is another news flash- our recovery isn’t about us! God has called many of us to our purpose, however our habits, hurts, hang-ups have detoured us from that purpose and what God wants to accomplish in our lives. I once heard Bishop Noel Jones say- “your mess don’t cancel your calling” Pastor Tony Evans in his book “Time to Get Serious” talks about Jonah and his running away from what God had called him to do. Dr. Evans states “ when you are obedient God pays the ticket but when you run from God – you get to pay the ticket” Jonah ran 2500 miles headed for Tarshish and the city of Nineveh was actually about 550 miles from his home! Once he got back and obeyed God- he still had to make the original trip anyway! Many of us are paying a high price for our Tarshish trip when if we had done it God’s way, he would have picked up the tab”. There are things that have happened to us and Satan has meant for those things to be our demise, however God wants those very things to be the catalyst for us to fulfill our unique purpose that he has called you and I to do. It’s an invitation to join him in what he is doing and going to do! He’s waiting for you to RSVP!
Reflection: Do you know what your unique purpose is? How has your recovery hindered or helped you see that purpose?
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
What"s My New Name?
(What’s my new Name?)
Another show I watch (my youngest daughter doesn’t understand why) is one of the court TV shows- Judge Greg Mathis. I like Judge Mathis style and most of his comments.(Plus he’s from Detroit so he has to be ok!) Judge Mathis usually has some harsh comments for those who are in his court and have a substance problem. I remember watching one particular episode that involved a man who had a crack cocaine habit but was in denial and didn’t like when Judge Mathis referred to him as a crackhead. At one point in speaking to the young man Judge Mathis said loudly and intensely – “Crackhead! crackhead! crackhead! That’s what I’m going to call you until you realize that’s what you are and get some help”. As I listened to the way he said those words- it hit home painfully. It reminded me of the years of not facing my addiction and all the names that I had been called over the years (crackhead has actually been one of the nicer words!)
We are labeled for what we do and get involved in. Those labels stick and become painful reminders of our past. Many of us can’t get past the names and labels of our past. Many times those around us wont let us forget-Divorcee, addict, whore, whoremonger, abuser, on and on. Revelation 2:17 (NIV) Says: He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give some of the hidden manna. I will also give him a white stone with a new name written on it, known only to him who receives it.
Stones were given for various reasons. Those sitting in judgment positions in ancient days gave their vote by either casting a white stone for innocence or black when they condemned.
J. Vernon McGee states- “The people of Asia Minor to whom John was writing had a custom of giving to intimate friends a tessera, a cube or rectangular block of stone or ivory, with words or symbols engraved on it. It was a secret, private possession of the one who received it. Well, Christ says that He is going to give to each of His own a stone with a new name engraved upon it. I do not believe that it will be a new name for you and me but that it will be a new name for Him. I believe that each name will be different because He means something different to each one of us. It will be His personal and intimate name to each of us”Awesome!
A new name! A name that has been given to us already-symbolizing what we are to him. I think that one of the reasons that he hasn’t told us what exactly the new name is, is because we probably would screw that up too! You know us , instead of realizing that the name indicates something different we would probably empathizing on telling people- “Hey! I got a new name! Guess what it is! Our focus should be that we are no longer- idiot, screw-up, no-good (and others that I can’t repeat). You and I may not know what exactly the new name is- but we do know it represents something far different than what we have been hearing and also what we have been living up to. I recall at one of the many recovery programs that I was in I had relapsed and had to go before all the residents in order to stay in the program. It was called the “hotseat”, I was placed in the center of the room and any resident who wanted to confront me and say anything they wanted and they certainly did! After everyone was through I had a short time to respond and I shouted back at everyone- “I’m an addict!!! That’s what addicts do!” I believed that if we were addicts then we were only doping what addicts do. One of the reasons I love the Celebrate Recovery® Program is that they have you indentify yourself this way “Hi My name is Tim I’m a believer who struggles with drugs, alcohol, pornography, etc (or whatever you struggle with). It’s important to realize that we don’t have to continue to be what people have labeled us to be. Don’t know what your new name is ? Don’t worry- he does and it reflects who you are to him
Reflection: How has the names that talk about your issues over the years affected you ?
Read : Isa. 62: 3-4, 65:15
Monday, January 05, 2009
Who Dropped You?
I don’t think there is anything more fulfilling after rearing your children than having grandchildren. There are many bonuses that come with the same - such as sending them home when you get tired of them!!
I remember one of the things that I did with my children that I and hundreds of other fathers do- “the ole toss them in the air routine” I remember their mother shouting at me- “you bet not drop my Baby!!!” The first time I would toss them of course they would cry, it wasn’t until after a few more times that they realized that their father would not drop them that they enjoyed being tossed and knowing that I would catch them. Matter of fact they looked forward to the game of being tossed and caught by their Dad. Being a Grandfather (actually a great-grandfather!) I now have the privilege of doing this with my grandchildren. Some of us have been emotionally dropped in our lives. Damaged, crushed,scarred because of the actions of someone else.
One of the greatest stories about being dropped, restoration and forgiveness is the Biblical story of a young man in the Old Testament named Mephibosheth. Mephibosheth was the Grandson of King Saul, and son of Jonathan . David was now King of Israel. As a rule the incoming King would kill all the relatives of the outgoing King to insure no one could later claim a right to the throne. David is enjoying success as a King and everything is going well. He asks his staff – “Is there anyone from the house of Saul that I can show kindness to for Jonathan’s sake? He is told that Jonathan has a son living in the land of LoDebar- (name means desolation, or no pasture) named Mephibosheth. When he was five years old the nurse caring for Mephibosheth dropped him as she ran while fleeing those that had come to kill the remaining family members of Saul and Jonathan. Both his feet were broke in the fall and as a result he walked with a limp. He lived from place to place always looking over his shoulders wondering if someone would recognize him. LoDebar was a desolate place, nothing grew there thus its meaning, a place where the rejects, those that had been labeled as worthless, no-accounts, no-gooders, the “can’t get it together” people of society. Mephibosheth felt comfortable here. No one really cared where he was from, it was all about survival. Then one day the Kings men find him and bring him to King David. I can imagine what was going through his mind during what had to be the most terrifying ride he had ever taken. Perhaps he thought- “This is it!” I’m finally caught! My life is over!!” he comes before David and David calls his name- “Mephibosheth?” “Yes My Lord he answers” David explains that he knew Meph’s Daddy and talks about their friendship. He goes on to explain that from now on he is to live and eat at the Kings table and no longer has to work for anything! It doesn’t sink in with Meph, he responds to David “What does the King want with a dead dog like me?” I can’t even walk right King David? Isn’t that like us? We let our circumstances determine where we think we should be. I’m an addict Lord! A drunk! I’ve got issues? Failed marriages, failed career, I can’t complete anything! On and on we go. David goes on and calmly tells him “You will forever eat at my table!” What awesome words. From a place of “no pasture” to the kings table.
That nurse trying to save Mephibosheth life didn’t mean to drop him; she was trying to save him. Many of us have been dropped perhaps while someone was trying to save us. A father walking out on us, a mother abandoning us, or perhaps someone who didn’t protect us from the abuse we encountered. As a result many of us bear the emotionally scars from the fall. We go through life limping. We medicate our feelings from the pain, doing whatever it takes to conceal that we walk with a limp, being comfortable with only those that have a limp like ours. I suffered being dropped and certainly did my share of dropping those I love. Who dropped you? Was it your mother, father, uncle, close friend? Society? Or perhaps you may have been the one who did the dropping, I may not know who dropped you, but I do know that what is more important is that you and I are invited to the Kings Palace. Welcome to the Kings table- crippled feet and all!!
Friday, January 02, 2009
As I look forward to 2009 –two things that God has convicted me that I’m lacking in (two that are outstanding) - Obedience and Discipleship. God requires strict obedience to his word. That obedience can’t be dependent –on what how God did something in the past. It’s the “how” that we get caught up in. Example: Moses was told to strike the rock in Exodus 17:5. However he was told to SPEAK to the rock in Numbers 20:11. Moses even says- “Must WE bring water from this rock …” and as you know this sin of disobedience caused him to not go into the promise land. Disobedience has always been man’s downfall, from the beginning right up until today. Moses perhaps thought- “Hey the last time I struck the rock..even though God said speak to it..I’ll strike it because .because I struck .water came out last time” But God said….”Because you didn’t trust me enough..to honor me you will not bring this community to the land I promised” We can’t even rely on our past experience with God instead of hearing what God has to say now. He may tell us to do something different in the same situation! We get caught up in traditions and how “we used to do it” God says- “Obey me” period! Disobedience caused the children of Israel to suffer at the Battle of Ai (Joshua 7) You will notice that Joshua did NOT inquire of the Lord on this occasion as he had before. He sent spies who came back and said..”everybody doesn’t need to go up..” They got beat back and when Joshua did ask the Lord why..he replied that there was sin in the camp, however Joshua would have known this had he asked the Lord before he sent the men up. The point is God does not compromise on obedience…ask Saul..When told to destroy the Amalekities he listen to the people instead of doing what was told to him by the man of God. Samuel states powerfully…”To obey is better than sacrifice…and to heed better than the fat of rams (NIV) The children of Israel’s captivity was because of disobedience. Seventy years of captivity because they would not let the land rest..as they were told to do. Jesus says …”if you love me you will obey me” If we have a obedience problem we have a LOVE problem. We are soldiers in a Battle ( a war) and like Jack Nicholson’s line from “A Few Good Men”….”we follows orders or people die” I don’t know about you but I strict obedience to what God is saying…even when (especially when)…I want to do it my way….
Next…Discipleship…
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Eagles Buzzards and Parrots


I love Birds. I love watching them as they fly free and glide through the skies. My favorite is the Eagle, one that I could watch hours on end. I have found that people are like some birds I know, especially in recovery. There are three that come to mind right away- Eagles, Buzzards and Parrots. The Eagle is an awesome bird. You can find an Eagles soaring on winds high in the air. They actually get on top of hot air currents and literally soar for hours. One reason they do this is to avoid the harassing smaller birds below. Eagles mate for life. They take risk in getting their food- you rarely ever see an eagle eating anything dead (carrion). The whole ritual of how a female Eagle attracts a mate is amazing. The female drops a stick and if the male eagle catches the stick before it hits the ground- he is chosen as a mate. Why? the saying "being pushed out the eagles nest" is true. They push their young out of the nest teaching them to fly and before they hit the ground the father catches them before they hit- thus one of the characteristics a female looks for in a mate – "If he can catch this stick- he can catch my baby!" You never see eagles traveling in packs- they are used to being alone and searching for food for their family. As I mentioned- they are committed to each other for life. I know some eagle Christians. They have had an impact in my life over the years. They have soared high-where sometimes it gets very lonely but where they have remained outside of the "do and believe what everybody else does" arena. They have encouraged me tremendously in every area of recovery. The buzzard of course speaks for itself. Buzzards are always in packs. Many times you will find them sitting on the fence or circling over head, waiting for something to die. They don't want to take a risk and get food- they prefer to eat dead stuff! You will find buzzard people every where (even in the church!) they will stifle your recovery and keep you from getting to where you need to go. The last bird is the parrot or parakeet. Although very pretty and cute the Parrott isn't a very adventurous bird. Parrotts are content on staying in the cage; maybe every now and then they will make a flight across the room but nothing that will take a risk. Parrots only repeat what they hear amusing their owners and all that hear them. I know some people like that- they know all the recovery jargon, they can pontificate (been waiting to use that word!) so eloquently about what you and I need to do, but they never get past the knowledge. They are described in Paul letter to Timothy "…ever learning but never coming to the knowledge (2 Tim 2:17) Give parrot Christians basic bird seed and they are ok. No risk, No stepping out of the comfort zone!
If you look at the picture above you really can't tell the buzzard in the middle from a distance. Knowing an eagle Christian involves getting up close-not just watching from a distance. You can get fooled by just looking up in the sky and thinking a buzzard is an eagle! My desire is to fly and soar like the eagle Christian God made me and called me to be. It is my prayer that's your desire also.
Reflection:
Isaiah 40:31 (KJV)
31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Think about some of the Eagle Christians in your life? How have they made a difference in your life? In your Recovery?
What are you doing to keep away from the buzzards of life?
Thursday, December 27, 2007

“Straining at the Oars”
Being in a storm is bad enough, being in a storm on a lake or ocean is downright frightening. The disciples experienced being in a storm a couple of times with Jesus. Mark 6:45-52 gives the account of the disciples in the boat going to Bethsaida after Jesus had sent them ahead (on the Sea of Galilee). Jesus went to pray and was to meet the disciples later. In the evening Jesus saw the disciples in the boat and saw that they were “straining at the oars” (NIV). Around 3am Jesus (who had been on land) went out to them and was about to pass by them-or as some have suggested- “come beside them”. The disciples didn’t recognize him and were terrified and cried out in fear! Jesus of course calmed them down with his words- “Take courage! It is I. don’t be afraid. ”
Has 2008 been a year of “straining at the oars”? Have your efforts seem futile against the storms of life? What I like about this account is that Jesus saw the disciples straining with the oars. Many times we strive and struggle and don’t believe or forget that no matter what the situation is – “Jesus still sees us”. It seems that we sweat and toil and give it all we can and we don’t seem to be going anywhere. We make some progress in our recovery and then another storm comes and we are back wrestling with the oars against the wind. Those around us can’t seem to understand why we can’t and don’t get it together. Sometimes we get so caught up with our straining and toiling that we don’t recognize Jesus- just like the disciples did. The text says “they thought he was a ghost and cried out”. Christ’s words come to comfort us- “Be of courage! It is I” Jesus enters the boat with the disciples and the wind dies down.
This has been a year of “straining at the oars” for me. Many days I believed the lie from Satan that God has forgotten about me and I strived to bring about change on my own and when he did come to my boat - I didnt recognize him.
No one can promise that 2008 won’t be filled with storms and high winds of life. My prayer for you is that you and I weather the storms of 2008 and let God do only what he can do. And like I heard my Pastor say – “Sometimes instead of asking God to calm the storm and waves- Ask him for a bigger boat to match the sea you are on!”
Whether it’s your recovery or just life itself you are not alone- He sees your straining!
Tim
Friday, November 16, 2007
Walls that wont come Down !
Have you ever come to a wall in your recovery that wont come down or you cant get through for whatever reason ? Sometimes those walls can be- waiting for a wife or husband to take us back, or "if our job situation changes-then we can recover", or waiting for our children to forgive us or say they love us no matter what. What if those things never happen ? What if the wife doesn't take us back, or the kids don't say what we want, or the job we want dont come when we want it? So we stand at that wall- staring up- waiting for it to come down so we can really recover.
- Bad make up (favortism vs favor)
- Bad set up (shouldnt really have been a supervisor over his brothers-showing off his new coat)
- Bad followup
However as our picture above indicates, "walls dont stop vines". We can love "over the wall", "recover over the wall", forgive over the wall" Once we are planted where we can grow in our recovery walls cant stop us as we totally surrender to only what God can do in our lives.
Do the walls in your recovery seemed unclimbable? Too high ? Got you just staring up? Allow God's love to plant you near a spring where you can grow and recover-not matter what the wall is or how high it is.
Tim
Monday, August 20, 2007
Bruised Reeds and Smoldering Wicks-Retreat


To all of you who prayed and supported this effort-thank you for listening to God and responding either financially or through prayer.
Ananepho Ministries
Ministry of New Life Christian Fellowship
1-888-AMI-HEAL

Friday, May 11, 2007
Bruised Reeds and Smoldering Wicks

" A bruised reed he will not break and a smoldering wick (flax) he will not snuff out" Matt.12:20
Bruised and Broken ? Feeling useless ? God has not forgotten about us.
Reeds were used to make flutes by Jewish children. When they were broken they were discarded and thrown away. A smoldering wick -was a ancient bowl of olive oil with a little fax floating in it for a wick. As long as the lamp had enough oil, the wick would soak up the oil and serve as a catalyst for turning it into light. But when the oil was gone, the flax would begin to burn. Flax doesnt give much light- just fills the room with smoke and stinks up the room. the solution would be to throw out the smoking flax and start over with fresh oil and a fresh wick. It take a lot of patience to make a smoldering wick burn bright again. God has the patience to stick with us when every one else has given up. He certainly looks beyond our faults and sees our needs. (Glen Penton)
Hope you will join us in August for our second recovery retreat- this year at Bair Lake Bible Camp in Jones, Mich. Our retreat speaker will be Rev. Haman Cross- Senior Pastor of Rosedale Park Baptist Church in Detroit, Mich . Our theme: "Bruised Reeds and Smoldering Wicks" We will have more info as we get closer or call us -1-888-AMI-HEAL
This is from Dale and Juantia Ryan- Christian Recovery Network:
Our healer is gentle
He will not shout or cry out, or raise his voice in the streets. A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out.Isaiah 42:2-3
Cheer up! Snap out of it! I thought you would be better by now! What's your problem?!
When we have been badly bruised, we have an increased sensitivity to noise. Comments like these - which many of us have heard even from people who genuinely love and care for us - are a kind of 'noise' during recovery. Because we have been bruised, these comments often feel like 'shouts' or 'raised voices in the street.' They are a kind of public shaming because of our inadequacies and neediness. And this feels like it will do us in - like the tiny recovery candle that we have just managed to light is being snuffed out by the wind of the shout.
And so when God responds with gentleness we are surprised. No shouting. No yelling. No hurrying to get better. Instead, we find compassion and tenderness. Our Healer sees that we are like a bruised reed. He will not break us. He will patiently restore us. He sees we are like a smoldering wick, ready to go out. Others might give up on us. But he will work with us until we burn brightly again.
Gentleness. Patience. Persistence. We need all three. These are the gifts offered to us by our healing God.
I am bruised, Lord. I am smoldering. And, I am so accustomed to shouting. It's so noisy that I don't always hear your voice. I don't expect your gentle ways. I expect you to yell, to be impatient. I expect you to give up on me. But you do not yell. You are not impatient. You do not give up. Thank you. Gentle Healer, teach me to be gentle. Teach me to be compassionate with myself and with others. Amen.
Copyright 1991 Dale and Juanita Ryan
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Hope House Men's Choir at Celebrate Recovery
Come join us at Celebrate Recovery on April 26th !
Our special guests will be the Men's Choir from Hope House of Lawndale Community Church
Come and experience God's Healing and Blessing !
There will be food at 6:00 pm- Celebrate Recovery will start at 7:00pm
Friday, March 16, 2007
Pastor V. Rick Thomas

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

The purpose of Celebrate Recovery @ New Life Christian Fellowship Church is to fellowship and celebrate God’s healing power in our lives through the 12 Steps and Eight Recovery Principles.
By working and applying these Biblical principles, we begin to grow spiritually. We become free from our addictive, compulsive, and dysfunctional behaviors. This freedom creates peace, serenity, joy and most importantly, a stronger personal relationship with God and others.
As we progress through the program we discover our personal, loving and forgiving Higher Power—Jesus Christ.
Welcome to an AMAZING
SPIRITUAL ADVENTURE!
Celebrate Recovery meets every Thursday- 7:00pm- 9:00pm.
Call - 1-888-AMI-HEAL (264-4325) or 708-755-7900




